..an earthquake of the soul. The ultimate goal of humanity, what binds together the fabric of our existence. Love is an invitation to experience the numinous…the deep soul knowing…a direct experience of god.
Love is provocative, a paradox evoking all of our shadows. The poet Rilke, reminds us that love is a high achievement:
“For one human to love another: that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks…the work for which all other work is but a preparation.”
Yet for love to heal, it must first shatter us. The insanity of love, that gut-wrenching desire and need for another’s glance, touch, and even smile; that is the fall into chaos where dissolution of plans, agendas, and order happens. That is the place where we give in to eros, to recover our wholeness.
I am not talking about the illusion of romantic love. This isn’t about the greatest hollywood love story, that which remains as the unattainable american dream to keep us in utter emptiness. What I am referring to is the real, raw, messy love which forces expansion, discomfort, even anxiety, and takes us to the brink of insanity, threatening to destroy our identities, moral and religious values.
Love destroys illusions so that we reunite with our other half in recovery of the sacred. It is the ultimate religion, spiritual practice, transformative healing. To truly love another, without judgment, expectation, and agenda is the ultimate experience of the divine.
Yet this love does not always arise out of consciousness, but often through the dark, murky corners of our shadows. I believe it is when we are able to face that within ourselves which is judged to be ugly, perverse, and crazy, can we find that place of deep compassion and resonance with pure love. As Marie-Louis von Franz writes, “whoever cannot surrender to this experience has never lived; whoever founders in it has understood nothing.”
This is the love I am in search of today. That which will shatter my illusions, and peel away the false layers of my persona. That which will take me beyond life, death and rebirth. That which will bring me back home.